Thursday, January 30, 2014

Dear Trish

Its been about 15 days since the 3rd anniversary of Trish Keenan's death. It occurred to me tonight how unreal it still feels. Even tho I never knew her, her music has been such a force in my life- akin to when I discovered punk rock. The bearing she has had far outweighs not knowing her.

I have been working for a couple years now on my Broadcast Project, where I attempt to make a video for all of their songs. I think I am on the 17th one now, but it started to feel like it wasn't enough. So, I have decided to make a full length documentary about the band, with James' blessing (which I am waiting for, and hoping for the best, as we have been in contact, crossing fingers....). Even if that blessing never comes, I still feel like there is something i NEED to do to make people more aware of them. I don't know why. You think you get past the age of that kind of fandom, but I realized with this band that I hadn't. Its like the need to build a monument to something beloved. You just HAVE to.

I believe in quantum physics and parallel worlds, and in one of those worlds Trish is still alive and is working on another EP and the band is getting even weirder and there are still many more songs to come. I would get to see them live many times, perhaps make some videos for them, I would get to tell her what their music meant to me.

But we live in this world. Rest in peace Ms Trish.


  1. I've been obsessed with Broadcast for the last three years, I actually only found out about them from an article announcing Trish's death that was published on Pitchfork. I've been watching your videos as they've come up over the last few months, wondering what magic could be producing them... I've always believed that the visual power of these songs could be harnessed if someone would just tap into it, and then lo and behold you came along to blast it through with the trippy mixtures of color-psychadelia & film-past-mash that somehow replicates what the music has done to my mind. I'm glad I decided to investigate and I'm so happy to have found your blog. I've never encountered anyone who had as much love for this band, it's something I will never tire of expressing, I'm constantly returning to the music and incorporating it into my paintings and poems. What you say about "hauntology" as the synchronicity of cultural mirror refractions speaks to the strange transcendental web of coincidence which can often seem "other-worldly." At times I get so carried away with these symbolic chains that I believe there is some spiritual messenger of the universe doing checks and balances with karma... but I'm beginning to come around and see how these things are just beautiful reverberations of the material exchange of art in our technological age of cyber-community. Anyway, I am so interested in seeing what you do next. Much love from Boston, Mel

    1. thank you for your reply melissa. it was right on time. i haven't been able to set aloft my plan to do a docu/film about broadcast- i am in contact with her sister and with james, but he is too busy and still in too much grief to be able to open up about her so it is shelved for now. still, broadcast will forever remain to me such an important force- and its such an honor to know i am not the only one. and yes, there is a web, we are all caught in it and she was too, and she speaks to that part of me that sometimes forgets how miraculous the world can be. would love to be friends on facebook- you can find me at facebook.mysterymachineinternational. cheers. and thanks for your reply.